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"The internship has helped me to understand what being and not just doing in regards to my relationship with God should look like." |
Tim McIlroy, 2023-24 Intern
At the beginning of the Eremos Internship, I was often preoccupied with my own way of thinking and focused on how I could impact people from my limited view of leading people in processing behavioral struggles. My desire to do the internship was really to just about do what I thought God called me to. I wasn’t really personally motivated to impact specific people or to process the hurts within me.
I now understand the need for me to engage in ministry aware of what I feel and not try to give out of an empty cup. I see now that I can’t effectively care for others without first engaging in my own longings and desires. In short, the internship has helped me to understand what being and not just doing in regards to my relationship with God should look like. God has used it to transform and expand my view of purity. I see how I have idolized entertainment, relationships, and my physical needs in life.
I sense that there are two roads I could take after internship. One, being specifically focused on engaging in ministry next fall and to some extent this summer. Two, to take a break and evaluate some of the lessons and messages God has spoken over me throughout this year.
Regardless of how I travel this next season, I believe God wants me in ministry overseas eventually. I hope to be in another country ministering within five years. I see the Eremos Internship as a pivotal step in my healing and growth as I set my gaze on the heavenly purpose God has for my life just like Paul says in Colossians 3, “Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.”
I now understand the need for me to engage in ministry aware of what I feel and not try to give out of an empty cup. I see now that I can’t effectively care for others without first engaging in my own longings and desires. In short, the internship has helped me to understand what being and not just doing in regards to my relationship with God should look like. God has used it to transform and expand my view of purity. I see how I have idolized entertainment, relationships, and my physical needs in life.
I sense that there are two roads I could take after internship. One, being specifically focused on engaging in ministry next fall and to some extent this summer. Two, to take a break and evaluate some of the lessons and messages God has spoken over me throughout this year.
Regardless of how I travel this next season, I believe God wants me in ministry overseas eventually. I hope to be in another country ministering within five years. I see the Eremos Internship as a pivotal step in my healing and growth as I set my gaze on the heavenly purpose God has for my life just like Paul says in Colossians 3, “Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.”